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pogomcl   in reply to Builder1   on


 in response to Singing Blue Flo...   your heritage is very honorable and my deep regards, because I hear in your voice that you are deep believer in the Great Spirit.
 
I don't believe in any Illuminati conspiracy theories.. and the true Illuminati which have been so badly  maligned were  good people.  Please stand on my part before the great Spirit. There are too many thigns outside my control adn I am jsut a small fish in a world of destruction and abuse...
 
I raise frogs, so  I can understand your respect for nature and your desire to remain in contact with nature.  My frogs are very very tiny when they transform. The newbie in kitchen is just barely one centimeter and each one  I watch over carefully.
 
Yesterday, I photographed the emergence  of a dragonfly from the head emerging to first flight--  and  I handle such insects like other people might  thier  cat-- but with tons of respect and awe for them.  I do not think there is a stupid creature on this earth outside of man. Definitely the frog people are very intelligent people.
 
I've been up all night-- you can write me directly if you wish Singing Blue--   Once the old Shaman of the Lummi called up the great Spirit on my behalf because  he told me that I was walking between two worlds.  I as very very ill and all the poele I knew had died...  he wanted me to go visit him, but I ahd no money to make the trip and did nto think I was worthy of his care.
 
For such people I ahve very great respect--  but I am invery deep crisis now and often I am just eating old bread  that is very old... and I work around the clock, but nothing seems to work for me. I've just had a very hrd life from beginning to now and most of the hardships occured outside my control. You can't blame the salmon for  the pollution over in the Hood Canal. They didn't do it.  And you can't blame all the millions of spawn that died in Oregon because the stupid government regulators turned off their water...  or all  the animals and fish that die in the plastic soup of the sea.
 
Or the eagles that were massacred in  Vancouver--  the greed and toxicity that exists, exists because of man's greed and laziness and disregard for  fellow creatures, not because  the fish invented plastic sacks.
 
reallly I did not invent the hardships of my life, but am just entangled in them  an so I spend as much times as I can searching beauty in nature and lloking at very small things.
 I am here
 
I just finished working all night and can't pay telephone or basic things today. I've nothing left--and I am dependent on the internet because of photography.   I have some images over on Alamy.com  and   a contract with AGE Fotostock but it could be another year before there is income.
 
I am very shy of public. write to me personally and I will keep in touch.  I really need  to pay off the basic debts today-tomorow because they are obligatory and I need the internet to survive as photographer.
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pogomcl   in reply to Builder1   on

 in response to Singing Blue Flo...   

singing blue-- you didn't offend me-- the page confuses me and  my response or note was written to someone else and ended up with you. as for me, I can't write anyone. I am in Prague, Czech republic and poverty and hardship is the same everywhere. When you're on the bottom, you're nobody and it's no easier here than there and probably harder. The US government doesn't care about poor American who get attacked by landlords overseas and it's all cosy-cosy  in the Old Boys Club. And it took me some 8months  before I could even recover a valid passport-- the US Embassy made my life  hell here. Without valid passoport, you can forget about getting your proper residency documents restored... it was really a nightmare.  Someone on this page was complainting about foreigners on Aidpage  and  couldn't stop to understand that peole are people the world around. And besides, the only real Americans are the Native Americans and they got hit with genocide. When I was a kid, I worked in the strawberry fields adn most people in US would never do that kind of dirty manual labour for so little money, but they will complain bout the migrant workers who do it for them. In US there is real need for machinists-- I see the calls for machinists and skilled trades constantly, but  Americans will not learn to do skilled trades and so the jobs and companies re going overseas because the compnies  can't survive without a workforce. Many companies that need machinists and skilled trades will  not only pay for the apprenticeship, but pay basic professional salary during that entire time of and then grant journeyman's wages on entry... and that's very high paid labor, but Americans are not interested; but they will scream if  the same companies are forced to use foreign labor. It's crazy.

 

Aid page completely confuses me-- I am dyslexic and I can't find my way around. It's like being lost in a mirror labyrinth--so forgive me please. You didn't offend me at all. 

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pogomcl   in reply to Builder1   on

 in response to Singing Blue Flo...   

why don;t you put yur evidence together and send it to a state epresentative or seek for free legal help. it's easy to find in the US and believe me there's nothing free or easy for people living abroad, so you shouldn't be xenophobic. If someone is from outside the US it's no easier for them to survive than you. google for "free legal aid"  +  state name   and you'll find some way to help yourself. As an  US citizen in Prague, I can tell you tht there is nothing given to me and I pay dearly for all, just as I did in the States. Poverty is the same the world around as well as injustice.

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pogomcl   in reply to keith123   on

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pogomcl   in reply to Builder1   on

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 in response to Emil...   

thanks for this explanation

 

maybe you can put it on a FAQ sheet or something. I haven't been in  since I created the page and I am more lost than a tourist on a strange street in a foreign city. I am also incredibly bad at social networking because of the time and expense involved with the internet and admit it. I  come into the internet only for work purposes and so the email messages coming into me  totally confused me.

 

I lost all bookmarks and my entire internet network in the last computer crash along with many, many years of work, so there was little way to track back and daily life  is just overwhelming-- so I wish to thank you for this explanation and for your page, because they are  both welcoming.

 

the grand announcement, "this site  s-x"  rather hit me in the face after 17month absence, but it reflects the attitude and demeanor of the person and not the site itself.

I have to go now. I never get the day's work done that I set out to do and life is very precarious as normal. I will try to find out a little moe in future, but internet is really very overwhelming force to me.  It makes me feel very vulnerable and exposed and a  grain of sand in the ocean.

 I feel guilty for absence, but I was absent from internet fror nearly the year because of stress and poverty. I'm crazy like an ant or bee-- when disaster hit my life and destroys the work I've done, then I just start working all over again in the midst of the catastrophe--and I just work around the clock. It seems stupid and mindless, but it's the nature of the insect.

So my thanks for the  clarification and notes to offeset the crass remarks I discovered on re-entry. 

I will try to return, but I get mental fatigue just opening my email box. So many people in such desperate need... fills my heart with incredible sadness  for all of them.

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I need  someone who is willing to invest in me as a rsponsible person with a future.  January 13/14th  2000, my landlord attacked me with two men at my flat on a Friday night. They forced me inside where I was cornered, hit and bullied.  One woman is no match for three men.  Somehow I escaped to the street, but they had the door off hte  flat and changed the locks. I was locked out  with very little other than my thin jacket on a freezing January night.  I live in Prague as expat American-- so this was disaster. During the  night while I was locked out, they stole everything of value that I had fom earrings to computer to walkmans, dictionaries, eyeglasses, wine--whatever their fingers wanted. Apparently during that time, they also tried to kill my beloved cat in  my oven.


I escaped, but not unharmed. In my desperation I called more thn 36people for help as it was late night  and I had nowhere to go. When the men came out, I was again attacked by the big thug who jumped me and bashed my head  against the pavement and stole the binder that I was holding in my arms.  It contained all my legal documents...  This was just the beginning of a nightmare and crisis that is still ongoing in my life.


A month later-- February 10th, I was attacked the second time by a professional thug who took my purse, the newly replaced telephone and passport and month's income and the last shred of my  identification. I didn't  even have a birth certificate or  pictutre to identify me and the US Embassy was  the least helpful organization in the world.  It wasn't until October that finally I had  a passport sstamped with the full extension of time because without that, there was no way for me to replace the stolen documents. So the US Embassy with its refusal to help me in crisis added incredible stress, emotionally and financially,  to my life.


The third attack came in March when a car ran me down. It  threw me across the street and did  some   unpleasant damage to  ribs and  gave me nice contusions to internal organs.  I had no money and all my properties of value had already been stolen from me.  I was rather in permament state of shock and the poor do what they always do:  they work. So despite cracked ribs on both sides of my body and  severe  trauma, I  went back to work within 24hours and taught 12 straight hours...   The trauma made it impossible for me to function very well as I had suffered a series of serious concussions and could not remember very basic things. The students had a great time ridiculing me because  when I wrote on the blackboard, gibberish appeared.  My knees were smashed to hell and  I had to go to  a doctor three days later because I ws in agony. He could not believe I ws able to stand, much less walk. A doctor told me I would not be able to see to rad for about 6months as a result of postconcussional syndrome. In that time I was  stalked and terror really ruled my existence and I disappeared into silence.


I have CFS and no medical insurance.

So as a result of pain and trauma and  stress, teaching English was not exactly viable-- I never understood what an opera singer was doing teaching  English, so at least it relieved me of a very  schizophrenic  existence. Photography is only silent singing.


My life became a vicious cycle of hardship after that.

I don't know how I survived these things, but  I  try not to think of  anything-- I try to ignore all the hardship and pain I have suffered and go on becasue  I don't know what else to do.


A year ago, a  Kodak franchise owner brought me a  writing project to do :to develop a community newsletter for expats that would contain travel articles, restaurant reviews, business profiles and free community news  note and ads such as  birthdays, weddings etc--  The newsletter was to be bi-weekly with  pictures and links  that would be set up on his website. I would have all the writing and pictures to do initially and tp set up  a  monthly photo competition as well.  Okay this is serious work and I calculated that it would be over 27pages in length to about 40pages which is a great deal of work for a person to produce and mount on the internet every two weeks, but on the other hand I am  a very good writer and this could be the foundation of new life. However, before you  start  the circulation of such a newsletter, you must  prepare the first 6-10 issues so that once it starts it continues.


So I did-- and he disapppeared with nonpayment. He didn't want to pay for the articles. He didn't want to pay for the pictures. He didn't want to reimburse any fo eh expenses and after all I'm native English speaking person so English must be easy for me.  There was no regard for my  university education or my  past portfolio as a writer. When I sat him down to show him the amount of work it takes just to set up basic web pages on a blog with hyperlinks, he didn't want to waste his time on me, but he wanted to claim "all rights."


And in the end he just disappeared after months of my work with sampe articles mounted on the internet at Gather.com


This left me in serious crisis. He angered me with his comments that  I could just copy the articles off wikipedia.org and my phyotgraphy wasn't worth payment. Anyone can take pictures.


This truly angered me-- I started submitting my pictures to photo contests in October 2006 and started winning Picture of the Day Awards with a dysfuncitonal, crappy Kodak camera  that he had given me because he didn't want to pay me anything. The  camera had been used when I opened it, so it really wasn't new, but  it was  discontinued product. It was also technically faulty and he did not  maintain the guarantee on it. Two settings worked, but  not the light meter and the shutter often didn't shutter or rather it shuttereed/ shuddered  things to a smear.

Through the images winning picture awards, I realized that this was serious competition and I was very good at it.  I started  studying how I could  use these skills and reading the legal stuff and technical specifications on Stockphoto sites because  I am really good at-- I have the self-discipline and critical skills to work at a  subject  or to produce a subject after hours of  effort.  I do still life very well even with a bad  camera, but  I haven't a professional instrument to sell my images off to good stockphoto companies like  Getty or Corbis.



The best way to help someone is to invest into their profession and their future,  I can't pay rent right now and I havenn't an acceptable camera to do  stockphoto, but it's really what I'd like to do. The computer died in December which added complications to expense and life.   I have the skills, the tenacity and self-discipline that's required to  achieve this. I understand problems of copyright and as a writer I can exploit this skill for  writing articles, but I haven't money right now for basic things like rent.


I need help and I wish to have establish myself and repay myu debts to those who can help me.


I have a portfolio of winning photos, but none of them could ever be sold on the commercial market. The camera is technically faulty and professiional photgraphy requires a minimum of 8MP  camera with RAW data files. Getty accepts a list of 4 cameras starting with the lowest model of the Coanon XT Rebel, but not for commissioned assignments. However with such a camera, I would be able to sell off the images and recover the money invested and stabilize my life.


I am exceptionally good at macro, still life and I want to do architecture in Prague-- I took an interest in Czech butterflies and found out that very few people are tracking them or identifying them. Butterflies are difficult subjects because they don't pose for the camera and require tremendous patience. They also sell for good prices if the photography is technically excellent.


All three are good for stock photo  but architecture requires property releases whch I can obtain through an attorney for real estate. This would be a good niche for editorial a nd commercial stockphoto because of all the beautiful art deco in Prague.


I want to open a storefront on a site like Shutterfly where I can sell off the small images (4MP) privately at my own prices, but again I don't hae the money to  pay the annual fees of 200USD or I would have done it before.
It would be nice just to have a decent keyboard.


I need help  for rent and help for the future to establish myself. I am very hard worker, but I have CFS and in 2002 both shoulderss were broken and I had no medical care:  it was agony to endure.  My right arm is shorter than my  left bu about 4cm as a result of an overlapping fracture and this causes problems for typing and my hand can be quite spastic at times. I just try to get on with it.

I am looking for a partner who can help me begin a ne life and invest into  me as a  worthy venture for the  future. I need the help and faith  of someone who can understands how hard it is to  always be on the bottom and  be given inferior products but demanded to produce the best.


I wish to establish myself and be able to have medical care and go to a doctor when  I suffer serious injuries and  feed myself.


I wish to regain my personal sense of dignity and value to society.  The work I do is good and I wish it always to  improve, but for me to   escape this crisis I need a future and a camera will provide it. I need to pay the rent, but tht's short term-- the profession though is all important. This gives me my sense of dignity and self-worth. It will also pay the rent and  return the investment.

Tthank-you for reading this.  The police reports are in Czech and  seriously I just tried to survive the attacks.





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